Dear My Love...

Dear My Love,
Today i wanted to cry. I wanted to lay down and weep like a sky split by God. Like i was crying out all the pain i had ever had in my life. But i cant.
i cant cry. Cant because i need you. Need you so much. I miss you.
I lay awake at night waiting, hoping that maybe i will hear a creak and then a rock hit my window, and to look down and see you standing there.
Or maybe the phone will ring and it will be you, asking me to pack a bag and meet you at the end of my driveway.
I smile all day.
But inside im screaming. Screaming because i can feel us falling apart. But it goes away when we see each other again. But thats the problem. If we only see each other one day everyweek i cant breathe. im screaming for you. SCREAMING.
cant you hear me calling you. I need you so bad.
So please come see me.
Come hold me.
Tell me its ok.
Kiss my forehead.
Wrap your arms around me.
lay me down.
press your skin to mine.
take my hand
place it on your heart
as you place yours on mine.
you caress my skin.
and the screaming stops.
the tears fall.
but not long
because i know its all going to be ok. I just need to lay with you. And you wont leave, because you love me. And i love you.
I will be waiting for you, tonight as i lay in my bed...not sleeping. I will be listening for you.